Well, last night marks my first official new job anxiety dream, at least one I remember. I showed up at this huge conference (flashbacks to SXSW, I assume) where I had all old versions of my business card I was handing people. Then some supervisor came over and was saying my computer wouldn’t be ready yet. I walked over to this woman and expressed my concern. I said “I know it’s too late to back out now but I wanted you to know how bothered I am by this. I came from a company that didn’t have computers ready for weeks after a person’s first day, so they had to use a personal computer. I had hoped this place was different.” She pawned me off to another person, saying it wasn’t her problem “Ms. Korean” “Mandarin Korean” hah. Who knows where I pulled that name? Then I was walking out on the street and it was dingy & rough, and I was thinking “oh gosh, what have I done?” I know none of those things are accurate, but it kind of shows that my subconscious is beginning to lose faith. I hope everything is set right soon.

Adam is officially driving out with me. The dates are still a bit up in the air though since I’m still waiting to fly out to look for an apartment. We do know our route though: first day strong push straight to Denver, then SLC, Reno, and SF. We’re going to spend an extra day in Denver and then take the scenic bypass through Grand Junction on our drive to SLC. It won’t be a true cross-country drive, but it’ll be a decent start. It will be a good adventure regardless.

It’s also likely that Adam & Gary are taking in Lily. She will have such a great time with them and will likely get spoiled. I will certainly miss her, especially those first couple months when I’m out there pretty alone. I definitely could use the company then, but I’ll just have to grim & bear it. I’m pretty good at that though.

Good news, though, is that I think I over-estimated the amount of withholding on my new paycheck, so my budget has a lot more cushion room now. I can look at a little nicer places and not worry about having enough money to get a couple pieces of furniture. I still plan to be conservative at first just to make sure my cost estimates weren’t too wildly off. It’s going to be a whole new world, but I’m looking forward to it. We ate dinner at a local pub last night and seeing the people there reinforces the importance of making this move, even if it turns out to be short-lived. I feel pretty certain that west coast living & I are going to get along just fine, once I get used to flying being part of my visit home.