Even though I slept most of the day away, today has gone pretty well. I had another really long chat with one of my new guy friends. He said something along the lines of “I talk to you a lot. I’m not sure why.” at one point. I wasn’t really sure what to think of that. Is it that hard to imagine me being interesting to talk to?? Ouch :) Honestly, I’m not really sure why either. He’s just another guy that can tell me about all the other women he wants. I try not to take it as a personal blow…hopefully his intention isn’t to make me feel worthless. I enjoy talking to him but we see a lot of things differently, so it’s good he’s not after me or anything like that. It’s nice to have guys to talk to which was supposed to be the point of this post. I like being able to be sarcastic and honest without fear, which seems to only be possible with guys. They don’t really care…which sucks in ways…but it lets me be myself. Although, ideally, I could be myself around people who actually care…anyway, this guy invited me to a LAN party. I felt pretty honored…haha…I hope I can get enough guts to go because I think I could have a good time. I need to get out. This hermit life doesn’t do much for me. I dunno…I know I’m not the coolest person, but I think I can be enjoyable to be around…or maybe I’m wrong :) I must be doing something wrong though because I have no real friends that I can go hang out with…I guess I’m only fun to chat with and not be with in person. I suppose I’m not very adventurous in terms of going out. It’d be nice to find some people that have fun the same way I do…like playing “mike” hehe. Oh well, I guess being one of the guys has its ups and downs. I enjoy the company so I can’t complain about not being seen as a girl…well at least not a girl that any guy sees as more than friends…well, I take that back that “cool” guys see as more than friends…I seem to have no problems attracting church boys…go figure.

Mood: relaxed…I think

Music: quiet grinding of my computer defragging…