I experienced some deja vu driving back to West Lafayette today. I pulled out my old industrial mix CDs. I may have been subconsciously inspired by wearing my NIN shirt. The first time I got pulled over, it was the same scenario and shirt, and I was driving back to West Lafayette on a Sunday afternoon. I was extra cautious of cops to avoid reliving the full experience. All weird, though. Steve Cooper came up in talk recently and then there’s mention in the last post of an ex’s g/f. So many things about me a year ago came to life today. I’d missed Orgy. I love Where’s Gerrold?

I got home to a new email, one I’d almost given up on ever receiving but the delay was caused by what I expected. I didn’t necessarily get the news I wanted but it wasn’t so bad that I got upset or anything. I’d prepared myself for the worse, but I’m still disappointed, of course. It would have been one of the best things that could have happened to me, but I trust in the flow of things. It all happens for a reason and works out in the end. I was just thinking that maybe this was why I was meant to work on that hospital project. Though the project did bring a nice resolution to some of the other unfinished business in my life. I just thought I was ready for this next step and that’s why I’d abruptly ended something good I had started this summer.

I’m curious to see what happens in my life because of this, though. There just has to be a reason. I’d like to think that it’s merely a matter of timing, but that would be wishful thinking.