Yesterday was probably the most exciting Christmas Eve of my life. It began with both my parents being MIA when we were ready to leave for Grandma’s. They both finally arrived home. On the ride to Grandma’s, dad was a little under the influence, so he was having a “family” talk with us. He was suggesting that Jenna or I come back home and farm…he got the idea from one of his farm magazines that had a girl on the cover…the daughter that returned home and took over the farm. It was an interesting drive to say the least.

I was looking forward to meeting my uncle jerry’s g/f of a few years, Emage. Meeting her was the highlight of the night, right after receiving an awesome tool kit which made me the man for the night cuz I could cut open everyone’s boxes…rock on. Anyway, as soon as I met Emage, I had a great conversation with her & Jerry. (I’ve always gotten along well with jerry…he’s just cool. first one to completely leave home…kinda mysterious…smart…and he has awesome taste for interior decor.)

I’m finally opening up around the family more, and I’m becoming quite the entertainer! Well, halfway thru the gift exchange, Emage asks what my bday is…everyone was a little confused. She said she wanted to do my numerology because she could sense something special about me. Of course, everyone died laughing. Well, she crunched my numbers and found I was a 39/3. I have multiple zeros in my numbers, which is apparently very special. A zero means divinity…she read my “bio” for my number and it was insanely freaky. It talked about my need to “recycle friends”...umm yeah…did I not just write about my “friend cycle”?? It said I try to bring ppl into my life that I think I can help and then turn them out when they’re ready…only holding on to a few. It’s just so strange because I’ve had arguments with ppl close to me…they ask, “Why do u want to be friends with this or that person?” and I reply, “because I feel this need to…” I can’t explain it. haha oh yeah it got awkward when said ppl were attracted to my physical presence but I have problems when ppl want to overstep physical boundaries…maybe that’s my problem…every guy I’ve dated has started out as a close friend that I help with problems…and then voila, they fall for me…thus, I need to seek those that I’m not trying to help…eh?

She told me so much about numerology, the 7 energy levels, and other things. they said they’d buy me a book and come visit me. she carries all these minerals with her because they have different uses. she thinks that I’m in tune with all these different energy sources but I just wasn’t aware…because I have been drawn to rocks since a child. I had a rock quarry in my bedroom basically and I collect minerals. I’m going to have to start trying some of them out when I get stressed and ill…plus I pay close attention to my dreams and all those things…

She had me use her angel cards. She told me to shuffle and pull two cards out after I asked a question. I asked about my career path…one card said I had a future in communication & arts. the other told me she knew I had great dreams and potential and that I knew my insecurities were holding me back and that I needed to start thinking I had a purpose…gosh…that’s been my focus this whole semester. I’m going to keep exploring this…I’m not religious in attributing this to a certain god or to angels, but I do believe in the numbers. she did the numerology for everyone in my family. The descriptions were soo fitting in each case. even my traditional dad was a little taken aback by it all. this is why I love meeting new people.

I’ve just felt myself change over the last month and a half or so…well not change…but I’m finally breaking out and sharing “me” with the rest of the world…for better or worse. I feel better than ever! I can’t wait to explore more…I just feel like traveling the world…