Well, I was technically on vacation T-F last week, but really, Friday was the only day I didn’t work. That was a bummer. At least I got to be home. My frustration with the work situation culminated in to a giant cooking fest Thursday night. By Friday at noon, I’d made a double batch of cheeseburger soup, homemade dinner rolls, and white chocolate macademia nut cookies. All from scratch. It was intense. So intense that I set my alarm for 8am Friday morning. No one gets up that early on vacation. My plan was to have a bunch of people over for lunch, but one by one everyone bailed on me. Luckily, Tyler is broke and won’t pass up free food. I kind of felt like I had taken in a sick puppy as he sat over at my kitchen table devouring lots of food (thankfully), while I made the cookies. It was a funny sight. No doubt. I was thankful to have someone appreciate my emotional breakdown spurred cooking spree. It felt good, though, to be away from the computer and keep my no-email checking promise to myself. Plus, it was a rare moment to do work that actually produces some tangible results. My arms kind of hurt from all the stirring & kneading, though :)

I spent Saturday evening over at Katie’s eating the least healthy food possible and watching a 6-hour Tin Man marathon on Sci Fi. It held my attention but wasn’t as good as I had hoped. The dialog was just super lame for a good bit of the movie. It was enjoyable to get out of the house, though.

I spent the first half of the week split between working and questioning everything in my life. We all know what happens when I’m left with too much time to think. heh. I just don’t know what to do with myself. Honestly, I’m a walking disaster. I’ve always had clear goals for what I want to do next with my life and now, I just have absolutely no idea. Well, that’s a lie. I have plenty of ideas, but no foundation to work towards any of them. I want to get a new car, but we all know I won’t be able to decide on one to make that commitment. I also want to move, and I’ve found somewhere to go, but it requires me deciding on my career future or at least finding a roommate to ensure I can afford it. And so I’m left with the bigger, looming decision of a career path.

I paid money to take an online career assessment. I liked some of the options they said would be good fits, but I have no idea how to start pursuing any of them: historian, ag sales, marketing/promotions, tour guide, travel agent, arbitrator, copy writer/creative writer, convention planner, film editor, & assessor. The group of these careers that actually pay decently require some experience to get any level of pay that would support my standard of living.  So yeah.

I haven’t been to work in 6 days, and I have 0 desire to return tomorrow. I should miss work by now. Granted, I wasn’t given much of a break from it, but it’s supposed to be the people and not the work that I really enjoy and I’m not missing that either. I’m in a horrible, horrible mess. I can’t just quit but I don’t think I’m going to figure anything without having some kind of radical sabbatical. Employers often don’t pay for those :)

Anyway, for the maybe 1 of you that makes it this far in the post. If you have a career that you think I would rock and some way for me to get started in it, I beg of you to pass it on. I don’t care what or where. I just need leads….anything.