I was chatting with a friend tonight about numerology. Well, I’m a life path 3 (add up single digits of your birthday until you get a single digit). (related numerology post) It very nearly describes me to a T:

“Capturing your capability in creative self-expression is the highest level of attainment for this life path.”

The left & right sides of my brain have been in a battle over my body my whole life. On those silly tests, it always says I use each half equally. I suppose this is technically good, but it creates some intense inner turmoil. It’s like having a stereotypical male and female charged with agreeing on a solution for every decision I make. (aka big domestic disturbance)

Left brain demands:

  • find steady job with good pay
  • find a sensible man, get married, double income
  • think about how every action will alter your life
  • respect chain of authority
  • acknowledge the right side will bring stress and early death

Right brain demands:

  • do what makes you happy. change careers weekly if necessary, and everything will work out (somehow)
  • variety is the spice of life. you’ll need one hell of an interesting/creative guy to hold your attention
  • help other people follow their dream, just keep a roof over your own head
  • experience life, no regrets
  • trust your gut, fuck social conventions
  • listening to the left side will leave you sad and alone the day you die

And I wonder why I have insomnia. haha. So over the past year or so, my right brain has been kicking lefty’s ass. Thus, recently, programming/logic has been a complete struggle, whereas designs that other people actually like seem to be flowing like water. On top of it all, all I can think of is my photography. If I ever get a long break, I’m focusing on improving my technical photography abilities.

I want to make a partial living with my photos. I’m thinking event photography for funds, but hopefully more documentary photos. I hate that there’s no record of some of the smallest but permanent changes that occur in the landscape. My hometown comes first, but then it will be random adventures. Maybe I’ll capture something that someday someone else will want to remember.